Hello.
I have not written in a while. If anyone regularly reads this, that is a known fact. Last month was a tough month. I think there is a thing inside that wants to be able in some cases to just close the book on the year before. I was able to finish my 24th journal on the 31st and I slammed it close and put it into a bag to go into storage. I kind of scared my husband who was in the bathroom. He called out, "Are you alright?!" I was ready to put that book away. To put the year away. Especially the part of the journal where I checked which week of my pregnancy I would be at.
I've felt alone, and disappointed and obviously sad. I've felt so ready to just be done traveling. Last night we spent the last few hours of 2015 playing Balderdash and Rummicube with a really neat American couple and a Syrian refugee. And then we set off fireworks and I yelled as they shot into the sky and giggled as they sputtered for a few seconds before going out and felt more free of all the heaviness I've carried around than I have in a long time.
I read a quote that I will need to carry around. So I decided to write it in big letters on the front page of my new diary.
"Worry is not believing God will get it right, and bitterness is believing God got it wrong."
-Tim Keller
So it's a new year with some worry and bitterness baggage to sort through. Yay. We leave to go back to South Africa tomorrow morning. Be blessed in all that you are walking through, figuratively and literally.
Katie
